Yes, there it is. 5 weeks. Early enough for me to be hesitant to broadcast it to the world. It's a very surreal feeling. I'm carrying a teeny tiny little baby. Currently he/she is the size of a sesame seed... wow!
For those of you who know us well, I'm have a baby Rizlet... or as Aaron is hoping for... Rizlets. (Seriously??)
It's not like I should be shocked. After all, we were trying. I just have these moments where I wonder if now was the best time to start trying. And then I have to remember, it's really not up to me. This obviously is God's plan for Aaron and myself. We are excited, but I will admit that I'm scared out of my mind.
The funny thing is that I educate women on pregnancy, labor and caring for a newborn baby all day long. But now, as I read all these magazines that my OB gave me, it puts it all in a completely different perspective. I'm freaking out a bit. Is this normal?
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy. Life is truly a miracle, but I have to push a baby out... huh??? Not only that but I have to gain 15-20 pounds... really??? Yikes!!!!!
Then i just can't help but think what will happen once my maternity leave is over and I have to go back to a full time job and leave my precious little baby in the care of someone else. That is not going to go over very well. But all I can do is trust Him that it will all work out. I'm not quite sure how. I would love to be a stay at home mom and work part time but we're just gonna have to see what happens.
I just can't worry about that right now.
So there you go... Baby Rizlet.
How am I feeling? Well I don't really feel pregnant. And I'm not complaining. I know it's still early. I feel great. For whatever reason, I actually feel more energized. I do hit that afternoon tired slump but some one-on-one time with the eliptical machine really does help with that. I've always been a predominately healthy eater, with my occasional splurges on chocolate, but I feel so overly concerned about everything I put into my body right now. Unfortunately, I am being very stubborn about giving up my morning cup of coffee... but it's truly the only caffeine I usually have. I haven't had any weird cravings. But my sense of smell...whoa! Everything is on level 10. That is truly weird.
I'm intrigued by pregnancy.
My amazing hubby is trying to be patient with my whacked out hormones. I will say they are truly ALL OVER THE PLACE. I can start to cry at the drop of a hat. This is gonna get interesting.
The funny thing is we traded my little 2 door car in a few days before I had two more postive pregnancy test and went to the OB. I was able to get an amazing deal on a sweet ride... friends call it the Babymobile. It's a Nissan Murano and it's truly the nicest car I've ever had. We still have to get Aaron a car since his Trooper is falling apart. And I think we've decided we are just going to try to make it all work in our townhouse. I love our house and for a townhouse, it's huge. But it's only 2 bedroom. I want to try and make it work for now and then we can move on to a bigger house. I just don't feel compelled to try and move on top of everything else that's going on.
As far as Mr. Kingsley goes, I keep threatening to kick him out. I love that dog but he is getting on my nerves. I'm still bitter that half of my blue tooth earpiece is in his belly. And that's my fault for leaving it where he could get it. He never chews on anything but his toys. I just don't get it. Maybe he senses great things are happening and his little world is about to get turned upside down. Who knows.
When 2010 started, I did say that I expected nothing but greatness. Well... I'd say we're off to a GREAT start.
Rachel, you are so sweet. I miss you guys.
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