That being said, here we go:
I love God. I am 30. I am a wife. I like to paint and to read. I LOVE to run! I also love to shop, travel and bake yummy goodies. I am passionate. I struggle with confidence. I can be a bit selfish. I am committed. I, like most women, don't like my body. I love helping people. I like to encourage. There are so many things will discover about me as you continue reading. I'm just giving you a few things upfront so you can understand where a lot my thoughts flow from.
I feel like my 30th birthday was a more of an awakening than anything else. (I got my nose pierced to slap turning 30 in the face!) I've been 30 for 6 months and I must say, I like it. I don't like what the past 30 years has done to my body (I haven't even had children yet) but I do like feeling that I'm now a grown woman. My motto since turning 30, "Life is too short not to be happy!" and I stand by that motto. This summer, I watched a friend from high school die of cervical cancer and it flipped a switch in side me. There's nothing more heartbreaking than watching a beautiful 31 year old wife and mother of 3 battle it out with the horrible cancer eating her up on the inside. She was a fighter and she is an inspiration. It was an honor to speak at her funeral. Her family is so very dear to my heart.
It is because of her and that motto that I've decided to make some changes in my own life. I've been an RN for the past 7 and 1/2 years. I have tried so many areas of nursing but the bottom line, it doesn't make me happy. It was shortly after my 30th birthday that I decided I had complained long enough and I sought out something that I really wanted to do. I went back to school and just recently graduated with honors as a Certified Professional Makeup Artist. I love fashion. I love makeup. (OMG, to do makeup for NY fashion week... that would be AH-MA-ZING!!) It only makes perfect sense that this is what I want to do. I know people don't quite understand. But my amazing husband has been my biggest support and I love how he pushes me to do what I love and what I dream about. I couldn't have done it without him and all my special people... you know who you are!
So since we are now talking about the man of my dreams, let me fill you in on that.
We are made for each other. He is my best friend in every way. I love him with everything in me. We've been married for 18 months and I feel like our fairy tale love story continues. I honestly was unsure what God's plan was for me when it came to being a wife. I truly did not expect Aaron to walk into my life and he did so when I least expected it. We dated for all of 4 months before we got engaged. We just knew this was it! To be honest, I thought people who fell in love that quickly were a bit messed up in the head. God surely does have a sense of humor. We were engaged for 6 months and had the most beautiful wedding on May 2, 2008, at Union Station in downtown Nashville. It was truly a magical day.
One thing I have learned in 18 months of belonging to each other... Marriages is hard work. But, it is SO worth it. We are both stubborn and we both have tempers, which makes for some interesting moments. But we love each other so passionately and so deeply. I thank God daily for blessing me with someone who constantly reminds me of how much He loves us.
We don't have children yet... although my biological clock is somewhat ticking. We keep planning things that make me say, I don't want to be pregnant then... Who knows when we will ever feel ready. We are at the point that if a "Surprise" did happen, we would be OK with it. At least, I would try to be ok with it. I don't know if I want to let a baby take over my body for 10 months only to ruin it forever. I know it's selfish but that's just me being honest.
We adopted a dog 2 months after we got married and he is our child right now. It's quite funny watching Aaron try to parent him. Kingsley is such a great puppy and a wonderful addition to our family. I of course, spoil him rotten. For example, the dog dug holes in our carpet...I mean, really?? But one look at that face and I completely forget the reminders of his ridiculous and unnecessary actions. I am proud to say we have made significant progress in his separation anxiety issues.
Now if we could just get the holes patched up.... ahem!
I keep thinking about all the things I could say about myself... but there really is just way too much. I could talk about the huge accident and the miracle it is that I'm sitting here typing this blog. I could talk about the fact I've always wanted to run a half marathon and last year for my 30th, we did it, and now I'm addicted to running. I could talk about how much I have learned about God's love and how much I've grown spiritually. I could talk about the joy that comes with leading a life group of 20 somethings.
There are so many moments in my life that I am very proud of and there are moments I'm not so proud of. But this is what makes me me. I'm a perfectionist but pretty aware of how imperfect I am. Thank God for His grace and mercy and most importantly, His forgiveness.
Like I said, there's much to talk about... but I have decided if I share it all up front, it'll make the rest of my blogging a bit boring. So, we'll start off with this and see where my creative outlet takes me....
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