That I would truly be lost without.
1. My snoogle pillow
2. Bio Oil
3. "Healthy Sleep Habits Heatlthy Child" by Marc Weissbluth
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Grateful.
A friend let me borrow a GREAT video. As I was sitting there watching it, I listenined to interviews and ended up yelling, "I've been saying that!" It was crazy. Anyways, the video perfectly explains why I have made the choices that I have. If you wonder about my decision, I highly recommend seeing it if you can. It's titled: "The Business of Being Born"
These days, my mind is so full of many different things. I find myself also flying through all the emotions a person has, but in a matter of a few minutes, hours or all in one day. It's crazy. Most of all, I'm so overwhelmed by the thoughts and emotions I feel every time she moves. I am reminded how perfectly awesome God is and that life is truly a miracle. It reminds me to not take any day for granted becaseu we are never guaranteed tomorrow. This I know from first hand experience.
I often forget how blessed I am to even be able to sit here typing this. Most people know my story, but there are quite a few who don't. So I will share.
This coming Oct. 10, it will have been 4 years since that insanely crazy acciddent happaned. That's why I think it would be so AWESOME if she decided to come 2 weeks early and arrive on that special day! I was on my way home from work, on the interstate, when an 18 wheeler came into my lane. He clipped the tail end of my car on the driver's side which then spun me in front of him where he plowed into the driver's side. I ended up spinning off across 2 more lanes of interstate before I found my resting place against a cement retaining wall.
There are truly some amazing things about this. One, I did not hit any other cars and we were on a busy interstate during rush hour. Two, I don't remember any of it. I never saw the truck since he was behind me. I was in his blind spot and he did not see me as he changed lanes. My first memories are waking up in the ER and even those are fuzzy. I hit my head against the window which led to closed head injury. I also fractured my pelvis in 2 places, broke my right arm in 3 places and fractured my neck. I had a partially collapsed lung, not to mention my body was literally black and blue form all the bruising. I ended up having to have surgery on my arm... I call it my bionic arm due to the plate and 10 screws holding it together. :)
It is a miracle because I was in a tiny Mitsubishi Eclipse and I survived a battle between a double trailer 18 wheeler. Not many people can say that. I've had no lingering effetts from any of the injuries. Recovery was slow and fast all at the same time. I am blessed that I healed so quickly but it felt like it took forever. I had to wear a neck brace for around 6 weeks due to the fracture and I was out of work until it came off. In the beginning, I couldn't even take care of myself. My family and friends helped me do everything from take a shower to getting dressed. It was insane.
I think about those days and then think on where my life is now. I'm married to the most amazing man ever. And I walked down that aisle. I ran a half marathon last summer. I'm pregnant. I can exercise. I can work a full time job and not suffer from a closed head brain injury. God is so good. I am truly blessed. My whole life is a blessing. We truly cannot take anything for granted.
It's so easy to forget how blessed we all are until we go on missions trips or see devastations like we did with the Great Flood. If you truly do stop and think about it, we are blessed to see each morning. No one on this earth is guarnteed anything, yet we take it all for granted. We live in a society that wants instant gratification. We want it, we want it now. We take everything for granted and as a whole, we are ungrateful for what we do have. We complain all the time. We always want bigger and beter. We forget that our life is only a moment in time.
I know I do a terrible job of being thankful, even with an amazing testimony like that. There is so much more to the story, so many details that I haven't shared. It would take forever. But as I think thourgh that time of my life, I am reminded how my Daddy God took care of me through it all. In every simple detail, He provided. I can't help that my eyes fill up with tears of grattitude. It also reminds me that I do have purpose. I hadn't met Aaron yet. Had I died that day, I would have never met him. I know that part of my life's purpose was to be a wife, to be a mother, to be a daughter, to be a friend, etc. I know there are so many things that I haven't walked through yet, but I know as I face each of them, it's for a reason. I am here for a reason. Each of us has a purpose. Otherwise, we wouldn't be here.
I can't help but be reminded of all of this as I feel this sweet baby girl moving around inside me. It is such a weird feeling yet so wonderful all at the same time. With each flutter, kick or sumemersault, I am reminded to thank God for chosing me. I am so thankful He has blessed my life with some amazing things. Even though I may doubt my ability, I know He sees my potential. And He is always in my corner, cheering me on!
No matter what you face today, know there is someone always in your corner. Of course, you can't do it on your own. That's why He's always patiently waiting for us to finally throw our hands up and shout, "I can't do this anymore..." At that moment, He can finally move in, pick us up and carry us through. Sometimes, we just have to move out of the way to let Him do what He does best. His ways are perfect. He always has the very best in store for us. We are His precious children and He loves each of us so very dearly.
These days, my mind is so full of many different things. I find myself also flying through all the emotions a person has, but in a matter of a few minutes, hours or all in one day. It's crazy. Most of all, I'm so overwhelmed by the thoughts and emotions I feel every time she moves. I am reminded how perfectly awesome God is and that life is truly a miracle. It reminds me to not take any day for granted becaseu we are never guaranteed tomorrow. This I know from first hand experience.
I often forget how blessed I am to even be able to sit here typing this. Most people know my story, but there are quite a few who don't. So I will share.
This coming Oct. 10, it will have been 4 years since that insanely crazy acciddent happaned. That's why I think it would be so AWESOME if she decided to come 2 weeks early and arrive on that special day! I was on my way home from work, on the interstate, when an 18 wheeler came into my lane. He clipped the tail end of my car on the driver's side which then spun me in front of him where he plowed into the driver's side. I ended up spinning off across 2 more lanes of interstate before I found my resting place against a cement retaining wall.
There are truly some amazing things about this. One, I did not hit any other cars and we were on a busy interstate during rush hour. Two, I don't remember any of it. I never saw the truck since he was behind me. I was in his blind spot and he did not see me as he changed lanes. My first memories are waking up in the ER and even those are fuzzy. I hit my head against the window which led to closed head injury. I also fractured my pelvis in 2 places, broke my right arm in 3 places and fractured my neck. I had a partially collapsed lung, not to mention my body was literally black and blue form all the bruising. I ended up having to have surgery on my arm... I call it my bionic arm due to the plate and 10 screws holding it together. :)
It is a miracle because I was in a tiny Mitsubishi Eclipse and I survived a battle between a double trailer 18 wheeler. Not many people can say that. I've had no lingering effetts from any of the injuries. Recovery was slow and fast all at the same time. I am blessed that I healed so quickly but it felt like it took forever. I had to wear a neck brace for around 6 weeks due to the fracture and I was out of work until it came off. In the beginning, I couldn't even take care of myself. My family and friends helped me do everything from take a shower to getting dressed. It was insane.
I think about those days and then think on where my life is now. I'm married to the most amazing man ever. And I walked down that aisle. I ran a half marathon last summer. I'm pregnant. I can exercise. I can work a full time job and not suffer from a closed head brain injury. God is so good. I am truly blessed. My whole life is a blessing. We truly cannot take anything for granted.
It's so easy to forget how blessed we all are until we go on missions trips or see devastations like we did with the Great Flood. If you truly do stop and think about it, we are blessed to see each morning. No one on this earth is guarnteed anything, yet we take it all for granted. We live in a society that wants instant gratification. We want it, we want it now. We take everything for granted and as a whole, we are ungrateful for what we do have. We complain all the time. We always want bigger and beter. We forget that our life is only a moment in time.
I know I do a terrible job of being thankful, even with an amazing testimony like that. There is so much more to the story, so many details that I haven't shared. It would take forever. But as I think thourgh that time of my life, I am reminded how my Daddy God took care of me through it all. In every simple detail, He provided. I can't help that my eyes fill up with tears of grattitude. It also reminds me that I do have purpose. I hadn't met Aaron yet. Had I died that day, I would have never met him. I know that part of my life's purpose was to be a wife, to be a mother, to be a daughter, to be a friend, etc. I know there are so many things that I haven't walked through yet, but I know as I face each of them, it's for a reason. I am here for a reason. Each of us has a purpose. Otherwise, we wouldn't be here.
I can't help but be reminded of all of this as I feel this sweet baby girl moving around inside me. It is such a weird feeling yet so wonderful all at the same time. With each flutter, kick or sumemersault, I am reminded to thank God for chosing me. I am so thankful He has blessed my life with some amazing things. Even though I may doubt my ability, I know He sees my potential. And He is always in my corner, cheering me on!
No matter what you face today, know there is someone always in your corner. Of course, you can't do it on your own. That's why He's always patiently waiting for us to finally throw our hands up and shout, "I can't do this anymore..." At that moment, He can finally move in, pick us up and carry us through. Sometimes, we just have to move out of the way to let Him do what He does best. His ways are perfect. He always has the very best in store for us. We are His precious children and He loves each of us so very dearly.
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